Caribbean story folk
Picnic nu mek me pit a dut and it dry up before yu com back
Me sey if yu understan whey me say
see me a put an di pat pan di fiya
yu nuh wey dat mean

Living with internal illness

I arose looked in the mirror

And there from my bed I saw a reflection, 

The total opposite of what I expect and how I feel

There the morning sun coming in through the window

I heard the body swear by life in death 

I truly wish I were not here in this moment

Deep down my internal felt like death 

Despite the feelings on the inside

I got dress in a black cotton dress

And stepped out the front door going for a walk,

Feet fumbling along the path, I ran into a neighbor 

Who spoke my name from the side of his lips

Oh my you are looking great

With a nod and a sigh I said if only you knew

You see I may be looking good on the outside

But my friend death lingers on the inside

The pain is gruesome, the aches unbearable

There are many days when I really do not

Feel like getting  out of bed.

Wishing with all my heart that the

Four walls would encased me forever

Lifting my eyes to the God above 

Realizing there is no strength within me 

To rise again another day for I am frail dust

Because living with internal illness is not a lovely thing

So this time I took Him at His words

Hoping He will restore or bring me home

So I truly cast my cares at His feet, 

Turned my eyes to heaven and walked on my way

There I kept thinking how wasted my life was

But the God of mercy and compassion saw the need 

and even at 94 he gave me a second chance

Aug. 4? 07

My Child Don’t feel sorry for me at 94

My child please don't feel sorry for me at 94.

You see my heart will fade one day. 

Why because many are the regrets

Of the past for the things I did not do

Places I should have gone which I choose not to

The days of my youth spent fruitlessly

Time spent with nature when young 

and strong doing the wrong things

Ignorance gave me no insights of true value

I thought I had the world in my hand facing foes and friends

As old age sets in and time does not permit me to do the

The things I would like to do, I'v come to realize how foolish I was.

Singing the songs I once love so much,

Their meaning now faded with age

Having no respect for time and space

Taking for granted that life belongs to me

Bur now in my old age at 94 I recognize the difference

Lying here on my back in bed reflection on the past

And could not see the future, of what fool am I

That moment truly brought me to my knees in humility

Recognizing how valuable life is when almost too late

Now my child don’t feel sorry for me

Instead render your heart to the master

While your are strong and young

Let him pour out his kindness on you

Then my old age spirit will go home

Rejoicing knowing that you have come

To know and love in your youthful days

The Beloved one that I have found in my old age.

Are you mine

Are you mine?

Honey this morning when I woke up

There was so much on my mind I forget you were there

Now that a few hours have gone by my mind is suddenly there again thinking of your goodness

I am just writing my thoughts to say honey I am sorry to walk away

At this point I do not know if you are still asleep, 

Never mind I get to understand that you neither sleep nor slumber but watches over your love ones

In that case you already knew when I left.

If it is not too much to asked I would like to stop by

Yes to see you face to face

For the last cause hopefully this time I will make it right

and get it over with in all sincerity.

I love you truly and if you have forgiven me please let me know in your reply

Thanks daddy

From your wayward child

Pour it out

The Alabaster Bottle

He is the precious one

The anointed Lord

I pour it out

Yes pour it all out

Needless you count the cost

I have already spent it all

You need must understand

Christ has paid the full price for my death

Not counting the many sacrifices

Trust me there is no perfume

Too expensive to lavish on this man

He is far too worthy

A portion just will not do.

That's the reason for the broken bottle

So I will pour it all out

Again I heard you over there exclaimed

It is indeed too costly

But oh what a difference it would have been

If you were there, when I was wounded.

Yes wounded and left to die

Christ was the one who came along and healed my brokenness.

Forsaken by friends and cultures

He became my great confidant

Yes buffeted by the famous in the halls

Of fame He gave me honor.

Rejected by society Christ accepted me as I was.

Despised by the rich, He received

And provided for me.

Attack by the enemy He protected me

When I was condemned to die, He stepped in as my judge

Oh yes unable to defend myself amongst

The elite in society, He became my advocate.

Sick, broken, weary and wounded, He healed my body

Safe my soul then baptized and makes me whole

Friends stop and think for a moment,

There is no need for concern over the broken bottle.

Remember even the merchant took my money, in the purchase of the alabaster bottle of oil.

And for those following Him I heard some

Exclaimed it is indeed to expensive

Yet I dare not heed their concerns

For this man has done for me

What no one else could?

Gazing upon His fair countenance

Transcend all of earth’s beauty.

Basking in His presence is

Treasures beyond all measures.

Earth's diamond cannot be

Compare with His beauty.

Forgive me if you do not understand,

What this man has done for me?

Oh yes having a lover like this in an everlasting relationship,

Showing me kindness beyond my wildest dreams. 

Friend he is a savior without limits

Worshiping at His footstool transcends all earthly honors.

My, oh my smelling His sweet aroma surpasses all of the  

Fresh fragrances, taken from earth's finest gardens.

Friend's I hope by now you have seen why

I His daughter, have no reason for wit holding the bottle

Yes this precious alabaster bottle,

Knowing too well He will return to me

Measures pressed down, shaken and running over.

Therefore with share delight I pour it all out,

Yes pour it all out, on this true lover,

The delightful Master and savior

He who deserved the full bottle of oil

And so again I say I pour it out, I pour it out

For all that He has done for me.

I pour it out

Pour it out

Yes pour it out

For my master, lover and King

The Fire

Friends Hell is hot.

In the cool of the day hell is hot.

No freedom to be found in the heat of the night

Behold Satan standing in the dark between life and death without a blink

Watching souls been snatched away by the unquenchable flames.

Belief it or not there is a connection between the 2

Watch the burning flames engulfing men in the quest

It’s not hard to see the

Destruction as the striking inferno

Unleashed each blow upon humanity

For hell is indeed a very hot melting pot

Yes hell is very hot

Wow hell is indeed really, very hot.

Just one glimpse into hells dilemma reveals its complexity.

Friends I’m telling you hell is the place of hot furry

Its catastrophe caught my attention within its perplexity.

Moving at the speed of light the fear heightened

Being mindful of the plight, to get out of the travesty

The fires furry had me grasping

Coming face to face where Satan Vest.

Hell is indeed a very hot melting pot.

Yes hell is very hot

Wow hell is indeed really, very hot.

Like flashing lightening I moved out of there, realizing

Satan is on a rampage rounding up sinners,

Like a stampede moving out of control

Knowing that eternity is coming and hell is not full

Yes, friends, with hell gone wild,

Satan running out of time

Millions upon millions of souls

Trying to get off hell’s bandwagon,

Now realizing that Hell is indeed a very hot melting pot.

Yes hell is very hot

Wow hell is indeed really, very hot.

Satan is hell bent

Trying to have us all annihilated

Hell eternal damnation unable to escape.

Yes hells burning inferno is awaiting humanity.

That’s why I stop by just long enough

Yes to let you all know that hell is hot

In hell there is no water running to quench one’s thirst

Brother’s hell is a hot inferno

Sisters I am telling you,

Once more hell is hot.

Hell is indeed a very hot melting pot.

Yes hell is very hot.

Wow hell is indeed really, very hot.

Mothers the pangs of hells terrors

Are far worse than that of

The travailing pain during child’s-birth.

Aristocrats there is no air conditioner running in hells

Burning fire to keep you cool.

Folk’s make the effort sure to escape hells fire

Its consuming flame is unquenchable

Hell is indeed a very hot melting pot

Yes hell is very hot

Wow hell is indeed really, very hot.

Very hot.

Very hot.

Very,very hot.

Gone too soon is what they say

Gone too soon is what we say

Gone just in time is what the Master say

Some might have trusted you

Others may show mere concern,

While many just oblige but for us you was the rock.

And deep on the inside we love you dad

Gone in your prime we might say and why we do not know.

Yet there is one who looks, sees and understands.

To him alone your time did truly come.

As we whisper among ourselves we can hear you speaking

That there is still work to be done sons, get to the task.

The vineyard is still there and much sewing to be done.

Daddy we cannot fill your shoe.

But with pride we put them on, to carry on where you left off.

Knowing that the task is hard and the laborers’ are few.

Gone too soon for us is how we feel daddy dear.

Gone too soon is what they say.

Yet you have walked a road in our lives that no one else could.

You thought us right from wrong and led by integrity

You have walked the path with determination and grace.

Often times we stumble and almost fall, but you kept us in line.

Looking back you were the one to keep us all in check.

We mourn your lost, celebrate your parting

But your memories true will linger with us always.

Gone too soon we have heard many say.

And as we reflect daddy we believe you have done your best,

Now resting in the arm, of the one who loves your best.

 Saying my son you have run the race now receive the trophy.

Gone too soon we have heard many say

Your race is finish son now let them carry on

For gone too soon from this world is what they think,

But gone just in time is what the Father says.

Gone too soon, yes gone too soon.

September 28, 2015

Pastor Wilson & Family

This world is upside down

This world is upside down

Men women boys and girls seems confused

Our governments mislead due to the pursue of political power

Our mass media no longer cares about good new as long as they sell papers. The caption for news today takes every little crap and make headline. The rise of sexual molestation by guardians and those that should protect our children is out of whack. Children are afraid of so call moms and dads who finds pleasure in destroying their innocence.
Improper sexual behaviour longer takes place behind close door it smeared all over televisions. We can see molestation signs on our buses and ad caption, on television, in movies and they are being carried out by even young teens. My God the cry is out when are we going to take back our children and give them the guidance needed to prepare them for tomorrow as citizens with character and dignity to survive modern times.

Gods Covenant

Walking through a world of sin. 
Many years before the sacrificial moment.
The Almighty God had spoken to a man by Abraham. 
These words were spoken in Genesis 15: 4-6.
Such words were given to Abram as a covenant.  4“Then behold, the word of the LORD came to him, saying, "This man will not be your heir; but one who will come forth from your own body, he shall be your heir." V5 And He took him outside and said, "Now look toward the heavens, and count the stars, if you are able to count them." And He said to him, "So shall your descendants be."
V6 Then, he believed in the LORD; and He reckoned it to him as righteousness.” If we stop long enough to search the bible we will discover that it has answer for everything that we do in this life, be it negative or positive. So now let us take a walk into the life of an  ancient man.  God has given him a son in old age and fulfil his promise to Abraham as father of many nations after (100) years. The word Isaac means laughter. I heard on a radio show March 9^th 2015 where people were seeking answers with regards to where and the reason of laughter. These people have gone to extreme length to fine out the benefits and the causes of laughter. On the 10^th of march I enter into my devotional space. In this space I open my bible to Genesis 21:3 Reading through the pages I found out that through partial revelation the answer to the reason for laughter explained in the proclamation of Gen. 15. 4-6 Read it for yourself. and you will  part of the reason for laughter.

The name of Jesus is the authority of Jesus. Without the    of  Jesus

Laughter according the great book is an emotion expressive of joy, merry, or ridicule

Psalm 59:8

Job 8:21 because of hardship follower by overcoming

International Standard Version
Even in laughter there may be heartache, and at the end of joy there may be grief.

Ecclesiastes 2:2
"Laughter," I said, "is madness. And what does pleasure accomplish?"

James 4:9 New Living Translation
Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy.

2 Chronicles 30:10 New Living Translation
The runners went from town to town throughout Ephraim and Manasseh and as far as the territory of Zebulon. But most of the people just laughed at the runners and made fun of them.

Laughter the cause of man’s folly  

Psalm 2:4 King James Bible
He that sitteth in the heavens shall laugh: the Lord shall have them in derision.

Genesis 18:12  12 Sarah laughed to herself, saying, “After I have become old, shall I have pleasure, my lord being old also?” 13And the LORD said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh, saying, ‘Shall I indeed bear a child, when I am so old?’ 14“Is anything too difficult for the LORD? At the appointed time I will return to you, at this time next year, and Sarah will have a son.” 15 Sarah denied it however, saying, “I did not laugh”; for she was afraid. And He said, “No, but you did laugh.”

Matthew 9:24 King James Bible
He said unto them, Give place: for the maid is not dead, but sleepeth.  And they laughed him to scorn.
Gods covenant was one of blessings unto Abraham. Many times when god speaks to us we do not take him serious and some people laugh at what he said and there ends are fruitless.

The Storm

The storm

Ride out the storm

See the waters raging

And the billows soaring high

The clouds very dark and the night restless

Just you know Jesus is with you, you are not alone

Yes look to Jesus his eye is no the storm

Set your gaze directly ahead holding on to his hands

I know the forces of hell is up against you but just remember

In the midst of the storm the Lord will protect you

In your conflicts and sorrows just ride out your storm

March 15, 2015

The sunset

The sunset

Beautiful sunset, beaming across the eastern skies

Rest thy glow upon my deck

Enhancing my garden with your beauty

From the distribution of those lustrous golden hews

Brilliant sunset shimmering down on ocean beds

Creeping over the horizons, the lingering meadows await thy bliss

Weightless sunset glows floating slowly across the skies

Filling it with your magnificent glow

Oh beautiful sunset lending splendor to earth

While resting peacefully upon the brows of mankind

Beautiful sunset your golden shades beneath the heavens
Leaves lasting memories within my vision

May 21, 2004

Negative Impact

Walking away from negative impact of alcoholism and abuse was probably the most beneficial moment of my career and function in life. Sometimes we asked the question what sort of stigma is attached to alcoholics and why do we avoid these people so much. Many of us try not to think about it or pretend it does not matter because it does not directly relate to us. Some of the stigma avoidance of observing unaccepted behavior, the bad breath, the nasty language abuse of family and friends and the list goes on. Yes some of us see the damage resulting to family lives and living but somehow keeps as a people we remain silent. Why I cannot understand. So it is not discussed publicly. Staff, bosses, medical discipline and most of the world in general just sit back and watched as countless millions are being destroyed daily. Spouse’s children and family often asked when it stop or better yet what can us all will do to help deal with this disease. The abuse of alcohol and other forms of spirit:

·      Result in tardiness and absenteeism in the workplace

·      Family destroyed and brokenness the end result of lives.

·      It also result in reduction of performance and productivity in the work-place

·      Not to mention the over-bearing cost on the health-care   system on working people tax $$$ and the government.

·      Illness, injuries death, accidents and high cost insurance.

·      Compensation cost and disability years are becoming more and more expensive.

Looking at this condition from a medical view point this disease can be found across all borders of life and living it has no boundaries. The sad part about it the clergy, counsellor, family, psychiatrist, doctors and the general public does find it difficult to deal with and talk about the stigma that goes with alcoholism. As a society we need to find a way to reveal and deal with this stigma associated with substance abuse at home and in the workplace. I believe this will result in the reality that people come to realize that others care and are willing to stand with them to work through this illness as they would another illness. Just think about it, many of these millions are mothers, fathers, brothers , sister, family members and people of our society.  This negative behavior is also affecting us in society conscious or unconsciously. Today we implore each other to help them by allowing ourselves to understand the dangers and effect of alcoholic abuse. It is a long haul but the power of the mind and determination of freeing one’s body from alcohol lies in the ability of these people recognizing that there many stages to recovery which begins with the first step acknowledging. Leadership ability directly impacts how we commensurate positive output on both the quality and quantity of our work production therefore full functionality are necessary to help remove the stigma from addicts.  When people are impaired it affects their ability to do a superb job. Unique observers disciplines are able to see the damage alcoholism caused and work through the whole process with them. This will resonate with us having greater confidence and respect towards ourselves and victims of alcohol who acknowledge their dependency on the substance. Walking away from the past during and after recovery is a great way to overcome the negative impact.

February 2015

The Force of Nature

The Force of Nature

Looking back the evening was lustrous.I can recall the long blue dress with the crinoline that I was wearing. The skirt was like an umbrella turned up with all its spokes open in full gear. I was so proud wearing something made specially for me. Everything about the dress was right and in place. Then suddenly things changed, when a gust of wind tore against the hillside. It came speeding down like a steam locomotive engine rushing by on the neighbourhood landscape. With wind gushing by at uncontrollable speed tearing trees and branches apart.There with my feet eager to get out of the way, my dress got caught in a branch and was ripped quite badly. Mother notice before I did and so she pulled me closer in stride beside her allowing the rip to go unnoticed. Right there and then other mothers and fathers turned with looks of awe upon their faces. Such swift movement left the horse, pigs, chicken and everything nearby wondering what happened. To my amazement nature was out of control. The saw mill one of the source of lively income, at the bottom of the hill nearly broke free with fear from the jolt. Even now I can remembered my mother reaching down grabbing my arms and pulling me closer to her for safety. Other voices were swearing and screaming what is this all about. Fierce men, with fist raised toward heaven swearing after the long-departed rush of wind. I heard my cousin declaring, "I won't forget that!" then down came the downpour. I heard an elderly woman say God is angry with the people for their ignorance. Why? People no longer believe or listen to his voice, everyone chose to do what they think is best. Walking after the desires of the heart and have forgotten the old path. She continue to say people need to know the Lord. We are living in serious times when we should be drawing closer to God instead we have become rebellious angry and spoil. Oh what a time and age we are living in. Young men and women no more respect their parent and what they have done and still doing for them. These people are like the generation of vipers that the great book talks about. The rain drops were so boisterous they appear as if you could hold them in the palms of one’s hand. But they did not remain long enough for you to catch them. Looking back as a child I did love the rain.  As each  drop came rumbling down from the sky I would reached out as if playing with it and never able to get enough. While mom on the other hand held me closer and closer, my desire was to free myself from her sweet embrace and dart out into the rain but that I know she would not permit for mom was afraid of the rain. That much I came understand later. The rain ceased but is was now too late to go to the children’s performance in town and that got me very sad.  It was that time of the year when the little children looked forward with great joy to go to the fair. Sad to say I had to remove my beautiful dress had something to eat and return to the activities of the day. To my amazing surprise reaching down to take my dress off, I notice there was a rip in my 
dress. There I burst out in tears dashed to the room where mama was. Mama oh mama look at my dress.With tears flowing down my cheeks mama took me in her arms assuring me that it was alright, she could fixed it. After much hugging and petting mama said now child go clean up my room and get your homework done. By this I guess you know what happen all the fun was over the rain washed out the party.Yes that was not much fun but mama would often time say child it is for your own good run along now and play and while you are at it just remember the force of nature is not something to play with

Come To The Light my Child

Looking back you divided the darkness and called the light day

And the darkness and the light

Is of equal worth in your sight?

Standing here on the other hand seeing the darkness

I cannot comprehend it at all

Yes Lord this sinner lost in the dark without you

Condemn dying, was I dying in a sinful state

Oh Lord lost without you is I

Lost in the wilderness of despair where sin

Held me bound for so many years

Wandering farther and farther away from your grace

Without seeing the barrenness in a no man’s land

Oh Lord life was hopeless before you came along

Dear Lord please does not leave me alone

And while you are looking down on earth

From Your heavenly throne upon sinful man,

Have mercy upon me also

Broken and lost without your direction

Unable to find my way dear Lord help me

To understand your love for me

Just simple show me the way knowing now that

For me you have stepped out into my darkness

Becoming the light of my life

Reaching out, carrying me into the light

Through your grace and mercy

Yes, you reached down and rescue me

Oh Lord I did not understand before

The words of the songwriter who said

“Oh what love my Jesus showed”?

Oh God I am so thankful for the day that your

Son has found me along the wayside

This heart of mine is overflowing with gladness

Knowing that I can now relate to the words

Written in the great book where Christ speaks through

The pages to the needs of lost humanity saying

He knew us before the foundations of the earth

Oh what love revealed in his foretold destiny?

See He was there during the creation of the earth

Making me a part of His life through death

The very moment He stepped out into the void

Saw the emptiness and marked my nakedness,

You see He gave to me life before He came

Onto this earthly scene thousands of years ago

God in love and mercy through the blood

Sending me Christ His only begotten son

And now I can relate with the songwriter

Who penned these words?

“Mercy rewrote my life

Remembering I am your heavenly Father

Directing you along the way is my job

I understand all your earthly needs

Clothed you in your right mind

Arraying you in earthly splendor

Placing your feet in paths of righteousness

Look to me this moment my child and live

Son of man turn not to the right or to the left

Without my guidance you will be lost

I your heavenly Father will flourish you

Yes in the land of the wicked

My son behold the desires of my heart

Unto you is for good not evil
My child come to the light

Happy Father’s Day June 16, 2007